A dark night for me and you

There was an awful smell and the color red was everywhere. "What happened here?" I asked. Then, that's when everything came flooding back to me. The pain, the tears, the sounds, everything. The pain I felt was like no other! O god why did I have to remember all of it. I wanted to forget that's why I did what I did.

Two years doesn't mean anything to him. All the time that we had spent together didn't mean a thing. My eyes had a flood of tears flowing down them. Then I started to think, " What if we were to brake up would it be a good thing, I guess our age difference is a problem." We had sat on the couch that brought us together on the first day that we met I still remember the first words he said "hey, I want to make a deal with you, if your not going to be happy by the end of the day I'll leave and you wont ever have to see me." well by the end of that day i was the happiest person. Even if i wasn't, i think i still would like to see him some more.

As i came back to reality he asked me, "are you going to be ok?"

"yeah I...I'm going to be great." I stutter in saying with my tears still flowing from my face. "Of course not you idiot I just spent the last 2 years with you. I feel in love with you!, but that doesn't mean shit to you!" I thought.

He got up and left me there to cry my life away. He doesn't know what I'm going to do, even though he should, he did help me stop...Well so he thought... Ah there it is, my little friend that's been there for me since I was 14. O' me and my little friend have been threw a lot. It was there for me all the times when I was depressed...It helped me sometimes feel at ease, when I saw the blood come out of my wrist.

Once I picked my friend, the razor, up it was like a trigger because someone ran into my house holding what seemed to be an old 22 hand gun. "don't move, don't scream, don't do anything!" the man yelled.

The man came over to me thinking I was scared and put his arm around my neck. "I don't care anymore. I can scream and you'll kill me, I can move and you'll kill me. Man you barge into the wrong house at the wrong time mister." I whispered to myself.

"what are you mumbling about." the man said bringing the gun closer to my head.

Apparently the man that is holding me by the neck and pointing a gun to my head is a rapist and a serial killer. His description fitted him perfectly, 6ft Mexican-American, short black hair, and weighed about 160. The way this man here killed his victims was that he raped the poor girls first then killed them after he was done. The poor guy had to come barge into my house. He doesn't know what he's in for, because right now I don't think I can take shit from anyone.

The rapist became panicked, because he had heard the loud scretching sirens from cop cars, and saw the bright blue and red lights that pierce through the courtins. "your surrounded, come out with your hands up!" The policeman said.

"If your not going to pull the trigger I'll do it for you" I told him as I grab the old 22 hand gun from him. As i grab the gun i started thinking about all the what if's.

the cops had heard a shot and came running inside only to see lonely a girl lying dead with tears still falling down her face, and a shot right to the head. "I...I...Didn't do it! I swear. She took the gun and shot herself! i didn't do it" the rapist kept repeating.

The next day Adrian had came over hoping i was ok. Rehearsing over and over what he was going to say "i'm sorry Emi. when i got home last night i couldn't sleep a weak because I really regreated what i did. Do you think you can forgive me? I really do love you." As he turned the coner he saw police cars and caution tape all around my house. "What happened!? Were's Emi!?" Adrian said almost with tears coming down.

"i'm sorry sir, but last night we found a dead body it would be helpful if you could go to the hopitol and see if the body is your Emi." The police officer instructed. Before the police officer said anymore Adrian dashed off to his car. Speeding with no care of his surrounding. Thinking "oh god let it not be her, please god!" over and over.

When he arivied he asked the nurse at the front desk if there was an unidentified body that came in last night. "Yes there was. She also had a note in her pocket. Would you come this way please?" the nurse said. "Can you tell me what kind of condition she in?" Adrian asked still scared.

"umm...we didn't know who she was so we could call any family to tell them that she died last night." The nurse said. Adrian stopped walking as the nurse told him the bad news. the nurse gave the letter to Adrian, because she felt that he needed to read it. "Hey there, I don't know if your going to get this letter, but i just want you to know i'll always love you no matter what, and i wrote you a poemfor you so you can know how much i really do love you.

the time we spent together
the first time we ever spoke

our little dorky jokes we made to each other

i remember it all.

i love going back to our most happiest moments

and remember all the laughs we shared

i guess my only regret was,

nothing

i love you and

i never wanted to say good bye

i'm sorry

love you always

~Emi~"

lost

i'm so lost now
i sit waiting in the same place like i was told to do when i was a kid
"stay put if you get lost, we'll come find you"
where are you?
are you lost too
if so are you doing the same thing that i am doing
if were both doing the same thing then how are we suppose to find each other
"meet me "
i hear someone from afar say
"were the only light shines in this dark empty pit."
i walk toward the light
not knowing if i'm going to trip, fall, or die
i don't even think that i'm not getting an closer to the light
but i won't give up
because i know i'll see him there
waiting to greet me with open arms
and a smile that i can never forget.
i can see the light now!
but there's no one there...
no one to greet me
no one with open arms
not one smile was under that light
just a little girl crying because it was a lie,yet another lie.
now i'm even more lost
should i forget about him and turn back?
i don't think i can do that anymore
because i am lost for good now in a pitch dark heart



(alternate ending- to bad
i don't know the way out of a pitch dark heart.)