how many times a day i tell myself i miss you

if i could count how many times a day i tell myself i miss you
i'd lose count all on the very first day

your there now always on my mind
i wish there was a way i could see you every day now

if i could count how many times a day i tell myself i miss you
i'd lose count all on the very first day

you'd sit across from me and not even notice
as i walk right passed you and whiper to myself

if i could count how many times a day i tell myself i miss you
i'd lose count all on the very first day

you stand next to me holdin my hand
and wouldn't hear me when i would say

if i could count how many times a day i tell myself i miss you
i'd lose count all on the very first day

i now lay under you
and you whisper to me

"if only you could know how many times i wanted to tell you "i missed you"
you'd lose count
if only you knew how many times i wanted to reach my hand out to you and tell you
if only you knew--"

if only i knew how much i wanted him to know how i truly felt...
and now i lay wrapped in his arms as he says to me
"if only you knew how much i never want to let you go
so i wouldn't have to deal with the pain of listenin to myself count how many times i tell myself 'i miss you' "

if i could count how many times a day i tell myself i miss you
i'd lose count on the very first day...

now i know how much you care
only because we felt the same
when we were apart...

marks the memories

there are marks now...
marks that tell me what i did
they remind me of what we did
where we did it when i got them
how i felt when i got them
my smile creps on my face every time remember what we did

but i know they won't stay forever
will the memories also fade as well
when the marks go?
is that when i have to say goodbye for good?
i don't want to though...
because i truly do love you and
i never want to forget what we did that one night...

nothing is hidden

nothing is hidden behind my true eyes
only the pain I've had from past fights
only the tears i try to hold back but can't
there is nothing that I've hidden from you

I've told you everything
I know about myself
you want to know more though?

stay by me and you can...
stay near me and never let me fall again
these are the orders i want you to only obey

anything you desire

tell me everything you desire
everything you want me to do to you
i'll do it no matter what
a bite?
a kiss?
blindfold you?
to sleep next you?
anything you want and i'll do it
i just want one thing in return...
and thatz to know you...
that you love me
even if it'z just as a friend
or more
thatz the only thing i ask in return
even if i end up with another broken heart...